Happiness in Loneliness

I am an intern. I tried to send my CV when there was a notification from my campus, it was from this company. I work in a manufacturing company, one of the biggest packaging company located in Cikarang. Before I was accepted to work here I had spent weeks to find an internship. Mostly in the same area. I planned it with my boyfriend, that after 8 months in a long distance relationship we really need to be together. I didn't think that this opportunity is actually a miracle. The recruiter called me in May, I forget the date but I'm sure I was at home, sleeping. He called me and I answered, weird. I'm mostly rejecting phone calls and prefer texts. He told me that I would be interviewed on Thursday, May 6. I was surprised that I got an interview, it was really hard for me, someone from International Relations background to get into an industrial working place. Then I prepared myself, I learned how to answer properly and release my nervous. On Thursday evening, after I did it o

Dear Abang, I don't know how to start this without having to cry every time I think about you. From the very first time I saw you I knew I would fall for you the next days after. It was a turning point for myself, I just broke up when I met you. I didn't know what to expect anymore, I was disappointed and had no one to trust. I started to lose myself in the process. But then you came and without any warning, I stunned. I had always been wondering what if I had a boyfriend like you, it was just a moment of hoping. However, you were not single at that moment, someone told me you had a girlfriend and it had been more than a year. I suddenly pulled myself back and tried so hard to lose the thought of having you. After all, I didn't want to be in between. Days after I met you, you followed my social media account. I was surprised yet I wasn't sure it was you since I didn't really recognize how you looked. I was just glancing at you. Then months later we finally had a tal

by 𝓈𝓎 Dear love, I might not the one that you wished for Not even close Perhaps I'm the one that you wished  you could get away from But here I am now, Beside you, holding hands I put my head on your shoulder And you hug me warmly Isn't it confusing? You would spend your whole life with me someday Even though marriage is not my thing But if it's you that asked me for, Never in a million years I would deny it Dear love, We would make the best teammate that earth could have! You and I Are meant for each other Someday In the future I make this poem by myself While hoping that someday, Whoever you are, I would be your warm-sunny day yet would be your cold-rainy day either I'll forever be loving you

by 𝓈𝓎 Love, They said outside is insane Lunatic figures all around Liars laughed irresistably They said people will hurt you, by acts, or words Light, They clearly don't deserve you Lies and betrayals will twist you hard No one is worth your soul! They won't understand you either All because you're one of a kind Life, Close yourself deeply! Everyone shouldn't know Your pure heart, bright and tremendous kindness Unless they could cherish you undoubtedly Yet sweetheart, Choose someone special The one you've never be amazed Not because his flawless look or glamorous life But see what he values in you And thus, You're no longer trapped now, Lovely Dove

by 𝓈𝓎 How could you? Hurt me with all your attention Yet stabbing me behind my back Manipulate me with your beautiful lies How dare you? Ask me to keep you company But all you can do Is just tearing me apart I'm so done with you There'll be no longer "us" Not a wonderful ending Only scars left We will never be something or anything We're just... Memories that will never be complete I said that you'd always have my back That was my biggest mistake I could never forgive you I could never forgive myself either You wrecked me Harder than before Forgetting what I've done to you Like it was never happened

by 𝓈𝓎 I'm lost, drowning in my own thoughts Thinking it was the fairest Thus the fact, the demon controlled it, raped it I need a guide, the one who will show me To the light; the one I've never been amazed of, be touched by the heart of, be taught by the sincerity I learned, that I was trapped by the dark Guessing it was the brightest star They fooled me! Oh, why don't I realize it sooner? I keep wondering I have no words, yet I realized something, curiosity, That is what people always tell me! I built my own weapon Only to impress the eyes I'll try, to not betraying them this time, my most loved ones The God, Prophets,... They have balanced me, NO, not only me! ...all of us...